♥ Dear Kurt,
It’s going to be almost 1 year since I lost you,but even though I know I don’t have the right but i wanted to say sorry. Sorry I was coward,for not telling the truth. But from all the lies one thing is for sure and the only true.. Is that I loved you.
Apparently,i wasn’t supposed to make this letter. Coz I know you won’t be able to read this,I just missed you. I’ts already 5:52 a.m and were having a bad weather that somehow that this day made me remember you. Just because this was the morning I woke up and thought about you a lot. Those little precious things you do before you go to school, you have your duty or going to church. You would call me up just to say “I love you and I have to go mhie i love you..so much.”. Then from that moment you just made my whole day bright even though it was raining.. Just hearing your voice completes it all. Back to those days when you were mine, All i wanted was “I wish it would never end”. So i couldn’t wait for you to come home and call me again.
I wish making love to you was real. I just wished I could have kissed you when I had a chance. But every time you kiss me on the phone, I just closed my eyes… Thinking “I could feel your lips”.
I got scared on that night you asked me if I want to marry you… But you may deny it, or forgotten about it…But it was the most wonderful thing you asked me, I got scared coz I know having you would be only a dream. Loving you was like.. “Living in a Fairy tale” a moment that I could never have.
I would trade everything… give up every moment.. just to have that night back…
It hurts me a lot, to see your in pain. But im always here. you may not see me, feel my presence, but im always here to care for you when times get rough on you. I always ask how you’ve been? or is there someone new in your life..
You were right, your hard to forget. Coz your always around.. Your always inside my heart.
I wish you can find your happiness… I love you Kurt.. in many ways….
“Minsan bumulong sakin ang tadhana,natakot ako! kasi bumulong”-K
